The Dream About the Well

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Happy Father's Day!

A couple of days ago I remembered a dream that I had in August 2017. I went searching for it in my journal today and found it. Here is what it said:

...I had a dream that we were at a pool and were having so much fun! But most of the time, I was underwater [and] not breathing! Mom and Dad were having so much fun that  Corbin climbed into a well [because he wasn't being watched]. He fell down and drowned. I felt so sad. Before I could tell Mom and Dad, I saw a magician. He looked very poor. He had a cape and claimed that he could do everything. I asked him if he could make my brother alive again. The magician agreed. He pointed his wand to the well. The well was at the pool, so the water went down and came back up on the sides and fell down again. There was no pail. When the magician pointed his wand at the well, Corbin stood up and climbed up the well. and I was amazed! Corbin was alive again!

The moral? All's well that ends well!

All joking aside. I understand now that this dream wasn't about Corbin, though it was at the time. Now it's about Abigail. She fell into a well, metaphorically speaking. My whole family was sad and wished that she could have stayed longer

But her Heavenly Father, the greatest magician of all, recieved her into his glory. Abigail is not dead, and when we see her in heaven someday, we will be amazed and happy.

And we will realize that death is only a part of life.

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Abigail Angelo est (Abigail is an Angel)

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Deus est Bonus. Deus in caelo est. Dues angelos creat. Angeli sunt in caelo. Angeli Deum amant. Angeli cantant. Estne caelum bellum? Caelum est bellum.

What language are these words in and what the heck do they mean? Don't even try to ask Google Translate. I can asure you that it won't be acurate at all. In fact, it will be hilariously wrong.

So what do these words mean? I'll tell you eventually.

Abigail is an angel. No doubt about that. What exactly is an angel though? An angel is one of God's living creations that don't have a physical body.

This is the dictionary definition.

"a spiritual being believed to act as an attendant, agent, or messenger of God, conventionally represented in human form with wings and a long robe."

So Abigail must have been a messenger, right? I'm not sure about the wings and robe but the rest of it is pretty acurrate. There is more:

"a person of exemplary conduct or virtue."

Was Abigail virtuous? Is she virtuous? Does she have high morals? It's hard to tell since she didn't have long to live on this earth. She didn't do anything wrong, so she is not sinful. I don't want to say that she didn't do anything right because that would be far from true.

She brought love from heaven. She is a messenger of God and from God.

That first paragraph was in Latin. Here is the translation:

God is Good. He is in heaven. He creates angels. The angels are in heaven. They love God. The angels sing. Is heaven beautiful? It is beautiful.

Yes, heaven is beautiful. And so is Abigail.

Nature and Abigail

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Today my family and I went on a little walk around the block and were trying to notice nature all around us. What helped me focus on that was taking out my camera and recording animals, plants, and trees. I was grateful for the nature that God has given to everyone on earth and it made me wonder how heaven looks. 

Every living thing will be in heaven, including the plants and trees. Nature will be everywhere. The only difference between heaven and earth will be that heaven will look like Spring all of the time. The scriptures clearly tell us "...not a hair on your head will be lost" (Luke 21:18) and so will it be with the plants, trees, and animals. Not a leaf, branch, hair, feather, nor piece of fur be lost.

But how does this relate to Abigail?

Abigail's body was like all of ours. Imperfect. Jesus Christ's body was imperfect as well, but his spirit was completely perfect. So is Abigail's. I know Abigail is beautiful because all of the love she brought me.

We visited Abigail's grave after the walk and my mom told everyone to tell Abigail what we would give her when she is resurrected. Of course my mom stole the best one: "I will give you a hug and cry" so when it was my turn I responded, "What she said". 

I'm not just going to give her a hug, I'm going to give her a really big, brotherly, bear hug. When I cry, I'm going to cry a lot. And they won't be sad tears.

They will be joyful ones.

Born the Same Month as Her Brother

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My birthday is coming up tomorrow (Feb 8th), but I'm not quite as excited for that as I am for Abigail's birth. I used to think that it was coming in March, which was true until Mom decided to have an early one on the 25 of Feburary. "Is that OK?" she asked me. I was astonished. Why would that not be OK? Then it hit me. My mom was born the same month that her older brother was. My uncle's birthday is a day before my mom's. He is exactly 4 years and a day older than her. Now I saw why my mom asked me that question.

I am both excited and nervous for Abigail's birth. Being nervous can be a good thing sometimes. I once went to a Tween Author Boot Camp. I was very nervous. The last thing I expected to happen was that I would win. Those who didn't win were thrown into a pit (I just made that up but it was still pretty scary). I won first place in my age zone. That experience exceeded my expectations greatly. I'm glad I didn't have pride before I knew the results because I would have had less enthusiasm finding out that I won. I believe that being nervous for Abby's birth is a virtue. I know that she will bring love to our family. I know that she will do other great things for us that we just don't know about yet.

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I can tell that my little sister's birth will be a very special one. I can feel her love and I know that she will never really die. I will always have room in my heart for her. Nothing can give me more peace than to know that she will always be here with me. I am proud to say that I have an angel as a sister. Abby is my angel friend now and forever.

BIRTH UPDATE:

Abigail's birth was very special. You could just feel the love reflecting off of Abby and onto everyone else. She is and was a very special baby and we love her just as much as she loves us.

That Unsettling Feeling

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I love my sister. She may not be here physically, but she is always will me spiritually and I pray for her and I think about her everyday. I have been wanting a sister for a long time. My prayers are being answered, just not in the way that I expected or even wanted to expect. I know that my sister isn't going to have a perfect physical body but I know that she is going to have a flawless and whole body in heaven and that she will be waiting there for us. And I know that her spiritual body is and will be very beautiful. Here is my version of the story:

Today I was very excited. I was going to BYU with my family! We were going to eat chocolate-covered cinnamon bears and visit the bookstore. I hopped into the car with my family and we drove to the campus. After that, we were going to get an ultrasound for mom. Me and my siblings were really hoping for a little sister. 

Mom had some classes she had to go to. We waved to her goodbye and she went on her way. You can't forget the walk all the way to the building. Dad, my brothers, and I did all kinds of things like rolling down the huge slope and getting some snacks (remember the chocolate-covered cinnamon bears?). We went to the bookstore and to the art gallery.

It took a while but we finally got together with mom again. We drove to the place where we would get the ultrasound. When we got word that we were having a sister I was very excited. Though, I didn't feel the same excitement that I did for the last baby.

Something didn't feel right.

Sure enough, there was something that the ultrasound guy didn't recognise. He told my parents to get another ultrasound from someone with more experience. I looked at one of Abby's pics and saw that there was something probably blocking her face. Or was that just my imagination? 

I tried not to be too worried and told myself that it was going to be okay. I just hoped that my mom and the baby was going to be okay. 

Later, I got news that Abby had a syndrome. My mom said that it was anencephaly. Anencephaly. Anecepyhaly. That sounded familiar. It was in my mom's Neurobiology book! I was not expecting this! My sister had a syndrome that my mom was studying in Neurobiology! 

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I was sad as I tried to hammer the reality into my head. I was finally getting a sister and she was going to be deformed! I knew that I was going to find peace eventually. I knew that God was willing to help me in my sorrows. And most importantly, I knew that Abigail and I would be together for all eternity.